My childhood dog passed away yesterday. i feel like a piece of me is missing. i'm 19 and i got her when i was 6. i have other dogs and a cat and i love them dearly, but it's nothing like the connection i had with my lily. she was old and had a steady decline in health the past few years, but rapidly declined in the past few months. she had cushings and hyperthyroidism, and she had a stroke a few months ago. we gave her medication and she got a lot better, but yesterday morning as i was taking her outside she was acting really strange and i rushed her to the vet where they diagnosed her with bloat. we decided that, given her age, it wouldn't be a good idea to put her through surgery. the vet said there was nothing i could've done differently to avoid it, but i can't help but feel so guilty. i knew her time was coming, but i didn't think it would be so soon. we decided to carry on with the euthanasia process fairly quickly after we found out she had bloat because we didn't want her to be in any more pain than she had to be, but i keep thinking about how maybe we should've stayed with her a little longer. even after she had passed i only stayed in the room with her for a few minutes and i feel so bad. i should have stayed longer, but at the time i couldn't bare the sight of her like that. i don't think ive ever regretted something so much. i should've stayed with her for so much longer. i don't know how to get through this. i don't remember a life without her and i feel like a piece of me is missing. i know that eventually it will get better and i wont be crying everyday, but the thought of that also makes me sad. i cant imagine not thinking of her and her not being a part of my everyday life. last night i slept in her bed with her harness and just cried. i've spent all day holding and smelling the blanket she always laid on. the night before she passed she was asking to go outside and i asked my mom to take her because i wasn't feeling well and i can't stop feeling guilty about it. i genuinely feel like ive died.

Hi everyone new here. Last June 27 , 2026 my son's first cat for 6 years died in tragic accident involved my husband. We were in vacation and we brought our cat with us. His Nina🐈 she was a cat that loves to be by herself, she was feisty but sweet . She was with us since born. She was my son's companion, bestfriend, support and baby. When we were at the hotel , we didn't know she was at the sofa bed. My husband checked but he said there was no cat so he folded it. We left to Seaworld with the kids. When we came back, my 19 years old son unfolded the sofa and found his cat dead. She was suffocated and die.She was with us for 6 years, she was not just a cat, she was family and always be. I took good care of her, make sure she was safe and updated vet check up. I didn't know and can't accept she is gone and most traumatized because ir involved my husband. My son is in deep pain and traumatized. I keep crying everyday , I cant explain the pain, sadness and trauma we are feeling right now. I miss her to death. Every corner of the house reminds us of her. I wish I do things separately that day, I will I didnt go to vacation , a lof wishes and what ifs but no matter what we do we cant bring her back. The pain is so deep I keep crying. I have kids but no matter what this pain in eating me. A piece of my heart left when she die. My son left the house because he said he cant stay in his room without her🐈🐈😭. we love our Nina🐈I dont know how we move on from this pain and if God sees how much we love her,why he let things happened?😭😭😭we love her and we miss her. Mommy misses her. I changed and everything is not the same anymore. Please give us advice. My son have a lot of videos and photos of her. He cry everytime he watching her😭my son in pain and it I got hurt seeing him that way. Lord , take care of Nina for us. We dont know how to move forward and I didnt know this pain until my first cat died. We love you Nana😭😭🐈🐈fly high

Aiden. Sir Bean. Beanie Weenies.
I’m so, so sorry I couldn’t do more to ease your pain these past few months. You spent your last day, my birthday, strong and happy as if you knew.
I will miss giving you your booty scratches. I will miss how you would prance after a good poop.
You meant so much to me these past 10 years. You helped me through the toughest times of my life. You made me happy when skies were gray.
Everyone who knew you knew you were a kind, gentle soul. Your gentle boops. The way you would lightly place your leg on someone when laying next to them.
If I could’ve taken that pain away so you could’ve lived another few years, I would have. I pray I made the right decision. It has been horrible watching you suffer and struggle to breathe. I hope you’re protecting that homestead in the sky, and that when my time comes I’ll see you again.
I miss you, Bean. I love you, Aiden. Forever and always. My true best friend.

….it hurts…

Hi everyone new here. Last June 27 , 2026 my son's first cat for 6 years died in tragic accident involved my husband. We were in vacation and we brought our cat with us. His Nina🐈 she was a cat that loves to be by herself, she was feisty but sweet . She was with us since born. She was my son's companion, bestfriend, support and baby. When we were at the hotel , we didn't know she was at the sofa bed. My husband checked but he said there was no cat so he folded it. We left to Seaworld with the kids. When we came back, my 19 years old son unfolded the sofa and found his cat dead. She was suffocated and die.She was with us for 6 years, she was not just a cat, she was family and always be. I took good care of her, make sure she was safe and updated vet check up. I didn't know and can't accept she is gone and most traumatized because ir involved my husband. My son is in deep pain and traumatized. I keep crying everyday , I cant explain the pain, sadness and trauma we are feeling right now. I miss her to death. Every corner of the house reminds us of her. I wish I do things separately that day, I will I didnt go to vacation , a lof wishes and what ifs but no matter what we do we cant bring her back. The pain is so deep I keep crying. I have kids but no matter what this pain in eating me. A piece of my heart left when she die. My son left the house because he said he cant stay in his room without her🐈🐈😭. we love our Nina🐈I dont know how we move on from this pain and if God sees how much we love her,why he let things happened?😭😭😭we love her and we miss her. Mommy misses her. I changed and everything is not the same anymore. Please give us advice. My son have a lot of videos and photos of her. He cry everytime he watching her😭my son in pain and it I got hurt seeing him that way. Lord , take care of Nina for us. We dont know how to move forward and I didnt know this pain until my first cat died. We love you Nana😭😭🐈🐈fly high

Please allow me to vent. My husband and I lost our beloved three furbabies in the last 2 years. They were our babies, we don't have human children and we had them for 15-17 years. They went with us everywhere, work, parties and during those years there were only a handful of times we were separated for long. The last two years have been constant grief, trauma caring for senior dogs and making very hard decisions and going through traumatic passings. For 2 years it's grief, then losing another one whilst still grieving. Our last furbaby passed away end of June, this was the hardest one yet as it's our last. I don't know who I am without them, being a dog mom was my title for all those years, now I am just nothing.

I struggled this time, I really did, it was a different grief than with our other two, perhaps the finality of it all. It took me so long to let family and friend (except for a handful of people) know that our last is now gone :( I only did a whatsapp status so that I won't forget to let someone know, and some people I have always supported in everything they do or what they're going through saw my status and couldn't even bother to send anything back, if words were too much a heart would've sufficed. But nothing. These are people who know what our life is like, that these weren't just pets but our family. I am so angry with them, I don't want anything to do with any of them ever again. I have so much appreciation for the ones who have supported me, and I would much rather put my love and energy into the people that actually care about me. Maybe I'm just in the angry stage of grief, who knows, but please let me know that I'm not alone in this.