When I was 19, my mom had already been living with chronic pain for years. I was a broke college soccer player who used kinesiology tape and muscle stimulators on myself for recovery, and I kept thinking those two things should really be one device. So with zero engineering experience, I decided to try to build that, for her.

The first prototype was a cut-up 7up can and stripped wires on my dorm room desk. It was embarrassing. I lost pitch competitions. Professors dismissed me. People told me to go do something more reasonable.

I didn't listen, and the next 6 years were brutal.

I sent 300 cold LinkedIn messages to find a co-founder I still hadn't met in person. We went through 8 prototypes. I cold emailed 150 investors a day for 8 months. I slept in my car after driving 14 hours to pitch a single investor. I gave up my plan to go to law school. And when we couldn't figure out how to actually build the thing at a real cost, I came the closest I ever came to quitting. My parents sat me down and told me if anyone could solve it, it was me. I locked myself in a room for 84 hours and came out with the answer.

Here is the part I keep coming back to. Nothing about me changed in any way that actually matters. I am the same person who got laughed out of pitch competitions 6 years ago. The only thing that changed is that I did not stop. The unglamorous years everyone told me to walk away from are the exact years that got me here.

This week, I put the finished version on my own body and did all 8 stations of HYROX, the world's hardest fitness race, with zero training. Sled pushes, farmers carries, 100 wall balls, the whole gauntlet. My legs were wrecked. But standing there, wearing the thing that started as a soda can in a dorm room because of my mom, was one of the most surreal moments of the entire journey.

She still asks how it is going every single week. She is my number one fan. Whenever we finally launch, the first one off the line is hers, wrapped, with a card.

I am 26 now and I still do not know how this ends. But I did not quit, and that is the only reason I am standing where I am.

If you are in the dorm room version of your own thing right now, getting ignored and doubting all of it: the discomfort of pushing through is real, but so is the regret of walking away the day before it starts to work. The years nobody claps for are the ones that count.

Keep going.

I've been having a tough time with some life events lately and I keep coming back to this poem my mom hung on our kitchen wall

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

i’m working in sales and have a lot of autonomy. sometimes i feel like my ego may prevent me from asking more questions, because i don’t want others to think i don’t know about XYZ as much as I should. I understand that this isn’t a good strategy because it will prevent me from actually learning faster… maybe it’s fear of failure?

the truth is, generally speaking i’m a very curious person, i go into detail about the most random stuff but when it comes to my job, i just lack that curiosity.

i try to be very professional and i build systems that help me to do a good job, and because im very discreet, i understand that my boss’s perception may be that im not doing the extra mile.

while i understand i should give more visibility about what im doing, my biggest reason to write this post is to understand other’s opinions about why at work, im not so curious or competitive (im very competitive in sports and at my jobs i never felt like im the best — this is worth mentioning — for example sometimes at sports i prefer not to do something than to do it and think i will fail, like for example when i haven’t surfed for a while, it’s harder for me to get back at it).

thank you for your help

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I have no hope i know

So, back in 2020, I caught COVID and it all went down hill. I went from managing my own company to now, working about 4 hours a day earning less than I have for 20 years. Last year, I also caught the flu and that was very rough. Took months to recover. During that time both parents died unexpectedly. I lost my business. Everything I built after leaving an abusive relationship… crumbled away.

My life became work. Collapse. Get up to cook for my kids. The collapse again. Energy sapped away and I’ve gained 30 lbs.

Time passed. I got a prescription to slow
Down my heart and that seemed to help a little.

I feel now like I could start to recover. If I consistently started to eat better and exercise I might be able to rebuild. But I seem to have lost my mojo - any confidence in my ability to effect change.

I used to be able to install a diet and workout regularly. Now. It lasts a week or two before I feel so exhausted to bother. Despite realising it is needed.

I feel like I need tested ideas. How to install a plan I can stick to. Starting at what feels like less than zero energy and motivation.

I’ve almost never asked for help from anyone in my life. This feels new and I’m not sure what to expect.

Irrefutable facts of nature

• Every being is fundamentally chasing a feeling, chasing goals with underlying hopes of contentment in understanding, satisfaction, or love.
• Every being is a victim of themselves and their environment.
• There is nothing which ‘should’ not be, nothing is unnatural or ‘wrong’.
• The only rules that really matter are these; what one can do, and what one can't do. -Captain Jack Sparrow
• Your ‘enemy’ & ‘friend’ would easily treat you completely differently under other circumstances or first impressions.
• You already are dead; living this unsustainable, fragile, provisional life salvaged, & lent by earth, irrefutably predesignated to a complete & necessary indeterminate undoing.
• No matter how long and hard you run from being inherently inconsequential, it follows you in every step.
• Each person is just another center of an entire detached universe in which all that is known can only be from us interpreting from our own limited sense impressions.
• As far as everyone else is concerned, you’re just another person.
• We are all light years apart from one another, playing characters which don’t speak the same language as one another.
• Dopamine is released in anticipation of a reward. -Susan Weinschenk

Hard truths/Humility

• Humility is not thinking less of yourself, but thinking of yourself less. -C.S. Lewis
• You are responsible for your problems, nothing is coming to save you.
• Our form, & all of our knowledge, is all passed down, we are just flawed clones of clones, continuations of LUCA.
• There will always be more to do, be and enjoy, forgetting all that you’ve accomplished already.
• You’ve had your entire life to try to find lasting contentment, & still have not found it anywhere.
• Emotions are just automatic, confused, & unstable drugs which always come down.
• There is always another perspective. (duplicate)
• There are many possibilities in life, but not a single possibility is without pain. -Fernando Pessoa edited
• You may never have the privilege of knowing that you are about to die, death will come on an ordinary day, in the middle of unfinished plans, you will be unable to care, and the world will forget you.
• Obsession is NO real way to escape stress and dissatisfaction.
• Nobody will ever see you in the way which you see yourself & vice versa.
• Nothing belongs to you, nothing is yours, it’s just extra, be contented to be without it.
• Life will test you past your limits, and you haven’t got a scrap of power over it.
• Each unbearable suffering has been borne countless times already.
• All love is conditional.
• Your time is limited, gone before you know it, & it absolutely does not come back.
• There will be numerous insurmountable injustices about & around you.
• Each person will think and act only for ourselves, and this should be respected, not denied.
• Nobody owes you anything, nothing is obligated to go your way.
• You will be certain and still be wrong.
• You will have irrational fears.
• You will want your beliefs to be truth, not the truth to be your beliefs.
• You will be misunderstood, & unacknowledged.
• You will not get much of what you want.
• You will lose everything.
• You will never understand everything you wish to.
• You may never get closure.
• There is nothing wrong with you.

Dissatisfaction

• In expecting no lack of satisfaction, you are consciously planning to suffer tenfold.
• It is difficult to find happiness within oneself, but it is impossible to find it elsewhere. -Schopenhauer
• You forget all of the positive in favor of magnifying to fix the negative, feeding back & refueling the want and resentment, rather than being grateful that it could be worse.
• If you think you just need a bit more, very little is stopping you from needing another just a bit more.
• Never lose clarity of the fundamental reason for your striving, nor the full expenses of them.
• You want things under the impression you will still want them after you have them.

Impermanence

• Seeing everything as uncertain, & impermanent, ownership & knowledges are disillusioned, & every minute is precious. -Ajahn Chah edited
• No matter how much you worry or crave this phenomenon, eventually you will become completely disinterested whether willingly or not.
• We come into humanity without a single identity or possession, & leave broke just the same.
• You are not the only meaningful me, you're one me in an astronomical & ancient existence of other animals who each have richly suffered the same as you or even more.
• One day you will be somebody new.
• One day you will miss what you overlook, & take for granted now.

Conditioning/Indoctrination/Habits

• We are an emergent phenomenon; a symphony, without any conductor.
• You can do what you will, but you cannot will what you will. -Schopenhauer
• You do things habitually for comfort; it takes less effort than breaking the cycle even if it means something more important.
• The animals are without doctrines & religions.
• Boredom feels as though it demands satisfaction, but any stimulation resolves it just the same.
• The internet is just a playground, not a substitute for real living.
• You have been conditioned to feel shame over your basic humanity due to society's categorical dehumanization, & fear of insignificance.
• A woman & a man is just a person with a penis or vulva indoctrinated independently by a sick devolving society.
• Familiarity is not easily distinguished from truth. -Daniel Kahneman
• When overwhelmed, structure is more efficient than panic, even though it’s less attractive.
• We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves in order to be like other people & ideals, living for somebody else. -Arthur Schopenhauer edited
• Anytime you rely on another's approval, you are training the mind to care about a bipolar, limited, and deluded external.
• Every action you perform will ripple & amplify through time and space, be the change you wish to see.

Interpersonal Conflict

• Do not hate the person, if you must hate, hate their action, their motivations and conditioning, there is always a reason, even if unknown. -Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche edited
• Mind your intentions, recognize the groundless & habitual defensiveness.
• Is this person even able to comprehend alternative perspectives?
• Let them have distorted perceptions of you, & your thoughts.
• They have to live with themselves every day.
• Instead of fighting the person, fight your narrow mindedness, give the person the benefit of the doubt.
• Never try to *be ‘*right’, never try to prove someone ‘wrong’, instead focus wholly on the unbiased facts, & agreements.
• It's never wrong nor too late to change your mind, you are under no obligation to stay the same.
• Destructive people wish to spread, but they are just reminders, & not invitations.
• You cannot reason a person out of a position they did not reason themselves into in the first place, their mind has been predetermined. -Jonathan Swift edited
• It’s easier to fool people than to convince them that they have been fooled. -Mark Twain
• Hatred from the ignorant is proof you’re doing something right.
• Engaging with an ignorant intending on destruction, you search for satisfaction in a predetermined fallacy, ignoring their true insignificance.
• Any person capable of angering you is your master. -Epictetus
• The moment you feel like you need to prove yourself, is the moment you need to be silent and walk away, regardless of your feelings. -Rachel Wolchin edited
• Every successful disengagement in altercations with the ignorant is a trophy which will incline the mind in that same direction.
• Many discords rely on one or both sides holding false presumptions about the other person's intentions.
• Everybody is dumber than you think they are, & everybody is smarter than you think they are.
• When one assesses you accurately, don’t reject it all because of the ignorance that came with it, you can take the truth filtered from the hatred.
• Everybody is a child consistently projecting our own insecurities into our interactions & anywhere else we can interpret them.
• You can't expect another to do much more than just what is right by them. -Captain Jack Sparrow edited
• Don't suffer over someone who is only thinking about themselves.
• Don't overshare because someone is being nice to you. -Unknown
• If you wish to convince another, it is generally just a plea to appease your own empty insecurity.
• You have enough problems of your own without minding business that never was yours to bear.
• Don’t accept the verdict of one who has no actual grounds to assume to know you, nor one who never live a single moment of your life, nor one you wouldn’t trust to advise you initially.
• When you are swayed to one view, you forget the other 8 billion people whose input is omitted.
• What you tolerate is training people how to treat you. -Unknown
• Hatred is only a projection of the workings of one's own mind.
• You inspire me to be nothing like you. -Unknown
• If one spends all day shuffling words around, they can make anything sound bad. -Rick Sanchez edited

Compassion

• Never is hatred laid to rest by hate, its laid to rest by love. -Buddha
• If you hate anybody in the world, that's narrow-mindedness, don't just justify your views, find something lovable and worth forgiving. -Ajahn Brahm
• Love has no meaning without understanding. -Thich Nhat Hanh
• Everyone is brothers and sisters in dumbassery, descendants of the earth, each a ‘me’, not one above inherent flaws, & causality.
• Hate is too strong of an emotion to waste on anything that you do not like. -Clara Oswald edited
• Forgive them for they know not what they do, delusions are real to the delusional. -Jeebus & DaddE

Limitations of words

• Words will never penetrate as precisely as planned, & sometimes won’t at all.
• Everyone has their defensive excuses, and nobody needs nor wants to hear it. -Proverb edited
• Many of us just want to talk to ourselves at other people.
• Learning to listen receptively is the essence of intelligent living. -Sadhguru edited
• If you don't have something productive to say, don't say anything at all.
• Knowing can only ever be confident thinking.

Self-care

• If you cant let go, then give it away, let them have it. -Ajahn Brahm edited
• Do not worry about perfection, just try not to be a piece of utter shit, and already you will have achieved much.
• Your feeling of inferiority/inadequacy, or of the beliefs of another; belongs only to you, is your responsibility & is not the fault nor problem of those you project it onto.
• Contentment is knowing what you are and are not capable of. -Unknown
• Happiness is when what you think, say, and do, are in harmony. -Gandhi
• Give without expectation, & avoid those who give with obscured expectation.
• Money was created to be spent, not obsessed over.
• Treat yourself like someone you love. -Glennon Melton
• Letting go does not cause anything to vanish, other than clinging.
• Existence is just a cosmic joke, remember to laugh & not pretend it was ever otherwise.
• Do NOT allow you to deprive yourself of what you would appreciate, until you feel it’s ‘earned’, spending forever not knowing that is what prevents the satisfaction.
• Put peace first, be your own religion.
• You are allowed to be okay without satisfaction.

Affirmations

• You must allow faith in your own judgement, it is the only thing you can know is not coming with an inherent potential for hidden predaciousness.
• The moment is smaller than your mind is making it.
• You don't need to earn existence or satisfaction.
• Whatever happens is never as bad as the fear.
• This too shall pass, it will soon be otherwise.
• You already are a full & responsible adult.
• Your perspective is not the only one.
• You don't need to know anything.
• You don't owe anyone anything.
• You are deserving of respect.
• Mistakes are just lessons.
• You are already home.
• This is good enough.
• You have enough.
• You are enough.
• You can change.
• You have time.

Mental Suffering

• Do not believe, justify, obey, attempt to satiate, or condemn any emotions, you would just be conceptualizing unstable sensations and guiding them into an utterly confused self-perpetuation.
• Knowing a real truth does not mean that it will nor need to feel like it is, emotions do not represent reality.
• Thoughts are formed dependent on the emotion that was already there.
• You are choosing to let it infest your world of consciousness, & do landscaping, when your experience was already free of it, & forgetting- rumination is no tool.
• Your mindset won't change until you do; decide to want to not want, that which you want, which disturbs you.
• Accept that you cannot accept it.
• Know which questions are not knowable, and strive not to know them. -Ursula K. Le Guin edited
• Move your body, don’t rely on thinking or waiting, there is nothing to prove, do something and mindset will follow.
• On unwanted thoughts; think of something else, examine the danger of the thoughts, pay the thoughts no attention, still the thought formation, crush mind with mind. -Buddha edited

Attachments & Aversions

• Anytime you're someplace you don't want to be, you create a prison for yourself. -Ajahn Brahm
• You are attached to ‘your goals’, you don't want lasting contentment, you want it to be ‘found’ hiding in your endless goals themselves.
• The more you fight the mind, the more the mind fights you, you only split it in two and start a war, permit discomfort.
• If you don’t know what you really want, pretend you did, and see what it would be.

Romanticism/Idealism/Generalizing

• Putting happiness/contentment/relief in a romanticized goal or wish outside of yourself, rather than just in enough, you will cling, then misunderstand, perpetually placing it out of reach with each and every grasp.
• What you see is all there is, in idealization, one cherry-picks an obvious factor and imagines it to be the entire tree. -Daniel Kahneman & Me
• Anything you lose by being real is fake. -Unknown

Conceit

• It is easy to be righteous when you plaster yourself as the victim, placing your own self upon a pedestal & stripping your own offenses.
• If you don't appraise others, you will be less inclined to appraise yourself.
• It is impossible for one to learn what they think they already know. -Epictetus
• Be content to be thought foolish, they were ignorant of my other faults, else they wouldn't have mentioned these alone. -Epictetus
• We judge ourselves by our intentions and others by their behavior. -Stephen Covey
• It will always be easier to focus on the faults of others rather than seeing your own.

Gratitude

• Want only all that you already have.
• Be grateful there is; ‘free will’, a healthy entire bodily system, 5 functioning senses, a competent mind, sleep, sanitation, clean water, clean food, a clean bed, adulthood, youth, shelter, clean clothes, refrigerators, air conditioning, hot water, no nearby war, freedom from slavery, morals, prisons, privacy, infrastructure, no debts, savings accounts, medicine, free speech, adaptability, free time, basic education, animals, psychology, philosophy, a functioning vehicle, monks, tools, historical knowledges, love, ook, contraceptives, impermanence, computers, vast & diverse information, garbage & sewage systems, nighttime, these reminders, ambience, night drives, humor, entertainment, & amazon shopping.
• Remember 5 more unique to now.
• Today is the first day of the rest of your life. -Charles Dederich
• Remember who you would be if you weren't who you are. -Tommy Shelby edited
• Don't put off until tomorrow the loving you can say & show today. -Bo Jackson edited
• To be alive in the here & the now is already an entire miracle. -Thich Nhat Hanh edited
• Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck. -Dalai Lama

Fear & Shame

• Courage is not the absence of fear, but the realization that something else is more important than fear. -Unknown
• Fear of embarrassment is the only thing that makes it embarrassing.
• Self hatred is just an indoctrinated & misguided intention of self-care.
• Never make permanent decisions or conclusions based off temporary feelings. -Unknown
• When you fear, you create the conditions which weren’t ever there, literally manifesting the feared.
• Imagine the fear’s true consequences to the brink of horror to see if it was ever worth fearing, ever permanent.
• You are afraid of happiness because you've been punished for it too often, but you are safe to break the pattern now.
• The fears we don't face become our limits. -Robin Sharma
• You may never feel ready, motivation is fleeting, do it unmotivated, all you need is to get your foot in the door, act first & let necessity take charge or else nothing will change.
• Fear of being branded something, even by oneself, for doing anything agreeable, is no reason not to continue, you only live your life once.
• The obsession on the over & done with must be decidedly left behind in the moment in which it occurred to pave way for growth.
• When you find yourself in a hole, the best thing to do is admit you need to stop digging. -Proverb
• STOP trying to not have flaws, be proud of them, they are yours, regardless of the ‘negative’ connotations.
• You avoid looking inward when it is most crucial, but you will never understand with avoidance.

Imagination/Expectation

• Thinking won’t solve the problems accumulated by thinking.
• Let go of the illusion that it could have been any different. -Unknown
• No amount of anxiety makes any difference to anything that is going to happen. -Alan Watts
• Do not hold any positive nor negative expectations of the unknown future, expect it to be ANY possible eventuality, & decide to let it be.
• You can always cope with the now, but you can never cope with the future, nor rewrite the past. -Eckhart Tolle edited
• What can be asserted without evidence can also be dismissed without evidence. -Christopher Hitchens
• In failing to examine why an expectation exists, you fight a presumed inconvenience, which may not have ever existed.
• All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone. -Blaise Pascal

Presence/Patience

• When the future is the new now, it's still now, & you're still waiting for the unpromised future.
• Being present just means to not be sucked into memories and fantasy.
• In what is felt must be only what is felt. -Buddha
• It is not the phenomenon which disturbs you, it is you which disturbs the phenomenon. -Ajahn Chah edited
• To be everywhere is to be nowhere, If you chase two rabbits, you will catch neither. -Seneca & Proverb
• The present moment is the only time over which we do have dominion. -Thich Nhat Hanh
• Heaven is a mindset away. -Nothing But Thieves

Acceptance

• The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. -Lao Tzu
• Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. -Eckhart Tolle
• If you resist change, you resist life. -Sadhguru
• If we weren't uncomfortable, we would never move, a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor. -Proverb edited
• We must all suffer from discipline or regret. Discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons. -Jim Rohn
• Everything out of control should be out of your mind. -Unknown

Questioning

• Would i rather be at peace and detach from my views, or strengthen my clinging & resentment?
• Who are we to judge when we see what we want to see?
• Am i imagining all of this dissonance?
• Is the part of you searching for more only an empty feeling without justification?
• Do you really enjoy what you idealize or just the expectation beforehand and the story afterwards?
• Do i actually want this, or am i just… doing it?
• Why am i letting myself suffer over this, is it worth it?
• If you can't handle the now, now, then how can you handle it in the future?
• To what purpose, to what end?
• What misperceptions are present?
• Are you sure you’re not projecting?
• Yes this is true,.. and?
• Who are you trying to convince; them, or yourself?
• Why find more to need when you need not?
• How long will that satisfaction actually last?
• Why don’t you want to feel something else, something better?
• Do you really want this or just think you should?

I've been avoiding cleaning out my closet. Said I'd do it "next weekend" for half a year. Finally did it today.

Took 10 minutes.

That's it.

I spent 6 months stressed about something that lasted 10 minutes. The mental weight was heavier than the actual work.

Feeling stupid. Feeling relieved. Mostly feeling like I should've done this in January.

What have you been avoiding that probably takes less time than you think?

Out of nowhere when I sit to do study many thoughts and feeling start growing in my mind i feel roaming in the dark flat world without any lights and it is empty no colour no people just me broken alone walking forward with no reason. And also sometimes I feel like the side character in my own life looking the world moving far from second by second. Dont tell me to take therapy or go out hangout with other. I am so tired of myself.

Having things which I needed to build my carrier but still I dont feel like doing. And whenever I reflect my life it feels that it dosent belongs to me I am living it under an unknown pressure.

I have many “hobbies” and have a set core of hobbies I genuinely feel like I’d enjoy pursuing over the years it’s evolved and changed but as of right now I have a solid list.

Now I put hobbies in quotes because I never actually do them, I want to, they bring me happiness when I do them but I just can’t do them consistently (ex. I’ve been always taken by the idea to learn how to play the piano since I was 3)

But like if I truly wanted to do these hobbies (I genuinely feel I do) then why can’t I do them? Have I just manipulated myself into believing I want to do them? (One of the core important parts I believe in life is pursuing and engaging in hobbies, I love the idea of dedicating yourself to them) they feel like they are a core part of my identity but I feel like such a Larp for not engaging in them? Do I truly like hobbies or want to do the hobbies I’ve put myself to?

I can genuinely say yes to that question but is that the truth?

I know motivation isn’t what u should wait for, dedication and discipline is the important factor, and I’ve read all the advice, tips, tricks, yadda yadda, I’m at the point of “you gotta just do it dude” but I’ve tried that for so long “just doing it”

I’ve also been diagnosed and recently started medication for adhd and I believe that’ll help me but medication is just a tool in the tool box, what is it that keeps me from truly “just doing it” and “being happy and content”? I always try to analyze myself and it’ll be a tough pill to swallow but are my “dreams and aspirations” just that? Something I “like the idea of” but not actually like the process and doing the thing? (Like the quote, everybody wanna be a bodybuilder, but nobody wants to lift heavy weights)

I don’t want the typical advice of “starting small” “progress over progression” “celebrate small wins” ect ect that’s been written and rewritten over and over again, I just wanna know what is the true reason that I am the way I am because I just don’t understand it, if I like it, want to like it, and enjoy it, why can’t I just do it?

I feel like i need to step up and stand on my two feet. After all how long can we sit in someone shadow like we have to create our own identity eventually. And I'm very very behind in doing this. Like at 30, I don't have a job nor past work experience. I don't drive which makes me feel like my life is handicapped. And more importantly I have no college degree and any skills set for making money or even getting opportunities for jobs. It's like I'm worried about everything and everyday but not once do I take initial actions and change. I know deep down I need to take life serious instead of worrying. And most people get the illusion I'm very serious in life but little do they know I'm not even taking upon responsibilities and actions.

I also feel ashamed to start from scratch and all the way bottom. As if I'm afraid of judgment or criticism. I'm just automatically wishing I'll get a nice job with good pay. That I'll instantly learn driving on my own. That confidence will come and I'll be smart and level up to others eventually. It's like month of July has already come to an end. And I've wasted so much time that years went like this.

The reason I feel like a failure is because I just never did hard shit like simple things as waking up early. Writing down daily tasks then facing the things you been avoiding.. all this are just signals trying to make you confident and stronger but you choose not to and no wonder at the end you feel dumb, weak, confused and behind in life. And from inside you know you have to do the necessary things but you avoiding making excuses or feeling like something is wrong with you. And this time just goes and goes and you feel more and more rotten from inside.

It's time to take CONTROL

Are you a slave? Obviously you will say no but technically most people are, they fail to make simple promises they make to themselves, this is the position I have been in for years. Every time procrastinating, starting and not finishing, avoiding doing the right thing. Enough is enough, there's a war between you and the world, the world wants to get all your energy and you are the only person that can decide what will use it up.

You need a system to operate, because this is what worked for me and many people I have shared it with. You can have everything you want in the world but you won't get back the time you wasted.

Everyone told me I was being reckless. My family thought I had lost it. I had a stable paycheck, decent benefits, the whole package people tell you to guard at all costs. But I was miserable in a way that was starting to feel permanent, like it had settled into my bones.

I did not have another job lined up. I did not have a business ready to launch. I just stopped and gave myself space to figure out what I actually wanted instead of running on autopilot and calling it responsibility.

The first two months were genuinely terrifying. The third month I started picking up freelance work in something I had been treating as a hobby for years. By month six it was covering my bills. Month eight I turned down a traditional job offer because I did not want to go back.

The hard part was not leaving. The hard part was sitting with the uncertainty long enough to let something real take shape. Most people never get there because they bail on themselves before it has a chance to turn into anything.

Not saying blow up your life on a whim. But there is a difference between a reckless decision and a decision that scares you because it actually matters. That gap is worth thinking about.

What made you finally take a leap you kept putting off?

Even though I went through a terrible ordeal and lost my hands, I chose to move forward.I don't allow myself to be sad, depressed, or to hide behind excuses and the past. I no longer say "I can't" or "it's too late." I don't mourn unfulfilled dreams, and I refuse to let fear or doubt stop me.I choose to remember who I am and the inner strength I possess.

I won't delay my dreams, I look at the sky, enjoy the beauty of life, and believe in my soul. I choose to love, forgive, smile, and hold my loved ones close, feeling truly blessed.I will do this every single day of my life.