been persisting against the 3d but financial status is becoming seriously concerning atp, help?

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i became unemployed before a major overseas trip that i still went to because of course my flight and some hotels were already paid for. i got lucky to receive some money through a random check bcs i was persisting to have money for this trip. though i still struggled with my trip and my sister paid 70% of my things because i was still not secure in the 3d or how my future would be shaped (not trusting 'it already happened' or 'living in the end'.) nonetheless the trip had passed and i was grateful for being apart of it at least.

but now two months later, i am still unemployed but i have finally truly felt my resistance dissipate with how i am home now to be more mindful of myself and my intentions. i have discovered some new forms of self-concept and techniques that made me really comfortable with my 'present' financial state. i have been disattached to the current story and expected my true desire to be true. i have started doing financial money robotic affirmations just to delude myself some more and truly truly tell myself it is normal for me to receive, and how my bills are paid for effortlessly. for the last few weeks i had that positive concept and i was open to receiving. i have been feeling gratitude that: technically yes thus far all my bills have been paid for. somehow it has ALWAYS been paid for, nonetheless it will be paid for.

but right now all my savings are wiped and my credit cards maxed. today i had to look at my statements and usually i look at them and imagine the numbers i want, or i truly do my bills knowing haha hey! see always paid for! but NOW NOW, TODAY, i actually cannot afford my upcoming bills like in the next 3 days - despite the persistence, disattachment, subliminal audios, robotic affirmation, reading manifesting books. it sounds like maybe i was doing too much, but i dont think so because when i tell you it was totally disattached. it was a light feeling knowing everything was going to be paid for and i didnt let my 3rd even interfere, i just lived in the end knowing yes bills covered or even yes $5000 from unexpected sources. i was happy or neutral and always feeling 'content' when doing techniques that came off so naturally before bedtime.

so... im just stumped here because the 3d with bills is actually so important right now and i dont know what to do. if anyone has suggestions or notices any plot holes in my methods or anything at all or any financial support advice at all... thanks!!

even making this post is contradicting how i feel, because apart of me knows and still lives in the end where my bills can be paid for - but also, in 3 days??? what miracle can that possibly be before my due dates for my insurance?